When it comes to following a spiritual path, making comparisons can be dangerous. While we are still in the Easter season, the final appearance of Jesus to his disciples as reported in the Gospel of John is recounted in Chapter 21. This Epilogue was added to the original text later.
Peter is feeling lost without his Teacher and Master. He decides to go fishing. This is what he knows. This is where he feels confident, competent, comfortable. He used to make his living this way. Six other of Jesus’ disciples, maybe thinking that it wouldn’t be good for Peter to go out alone, choose to go with him – whether their background is fishing or not.
They fish all night, but don’t catch a thing. At dawn, Jesus shows up on the shore and directs them to try again. They net a huge number of large fish. Jesus then invites them to a breakfast cook-out on the beach. The lesson? Peter and the others can’t go back to what was before they were called. Their commitment now is to Jesus and to this new life of proclaiming and living the gospel.
After breakfast, Jesus takes Peter aside to initiate the process of reconciliation with him. Jesus knows that Peter is heavily burdened with shame and guilt for his cowardice and denial. By offering Peter the responsibility of shepherding Jesus’ young and growing flock, Jesus is reassuring Peter that, from his side, there is nothing between them. It’s up to Peter to let go of the past and wholeheartedly embrace what lies ahead.
Finally (John 21:18-22), Jesus lets Peter know that he will pay the ultimate price if he accepts this role of shepherding. With this warning, Jesus again calls Peter, using the same words as the first time. “Follow me.” Peter is still a bit uncertain. He turns around and happens to see the “disciple whom Jesus loved” following them at a distance.
Peter, perhaps cloaking his own discomfort, asks Jesus, “What about that one, Lord?” Jesus answers, “If I want him to stay around until I return, why is that your concern? You are to follow me.” Peter had the choice at that moment to focus on Jesus’ call to him or on the other disciple’s path and future. We know from history that Peter chose to throw himself completely into following Jesus’ personal call.
We can get ourselves in big trouble when we try to compare ourselves with anyone else, to compare our journey with anyone else’s.Though we have much in common, we are all unique. There is no one-size-fits-all spirituality. What works for one may, or may not be helpful for another. Trying to pick a model, a holy person, a saint, a guru, even trying too hard to be like Jesus, can lead us away from our own way of holiness/wholeness.
There are as many paths as there are people. Life itself informs and reveals our way. For followers of Jesus, the way will always involve openness, freedom, compassion, love, grounded in the concrete reality we are living in this moment.